The 10% turned out to be a not so pleasant encounter with a security guard at the beach who has poor self-esteem and jeolous of “successful people”. It was a brief interchange and I got attacked in a roundabout way as I was about to leave. She obviously saw how happy I had been for nearly a week, and develop hatre/jeolous. The happy me was “rubbing it in”, unknowingly, by telling her how happy the vacation has been. I meant it as a compliment because that’s how I would feel if I am in her position.

So, I was wondering, where did things go wrong? This timely email is the answer to my question. It IS something inside me. I am a self-made person, all the way from childhood. And I despise people who whine, complain, getting jeolous of those who made it on their own. These bottom-dwellers stay where they are with that kind of attitudes. So, there is an existing “war” inside me, the good looking down on the evil. A psychiatrist would probably explain this as “that evil is the side that you are afraid of becoming”, whatever.

So, here I am, wondering, “Now, should I force myself to ‘embrace’, ‘love’, these ‘low lives/bottom=dwellers’, to say, ‘hey, you are a just as adorable, respectable with the kind of attitude you have?” I honestly can’t do that.

What do you think I should do to make my next vacation 100% positive?

GK